Full Testimony

I am a Christian, a follower of Jesus Christ. I was born and raised in Liverpool England where I spent my time playing soccer, doing Martial Arts, eating fish and chips, beans on toast and not understanding life. At the age of 13 I had gone on vacation to New Jersey to visit my older sisters who were nannying there at the time. On my 13th birthday I received a skateboard as a gift from my sister, and from that time on my life became about skating. Soccer and Martial Arts were always inviting as a kid, as part of my life, but  when I found skating, skating became my life.

Growing up in Liverpool the streets are rough and the attitude can be harsh. There was lots of conflicts and it was normal to get into fights. Soccer was something I did because it was what you do, and Martial Arts became significant because of how interested in Bruce lee I was. Growing up my Dad would play Bruce’s movies and fill heavy industrial bags with folded newspapers and carpets for me to hit. Many rainy nights in Walton were spent like this.

As I began to skate more and more, skating presented a new focus, new possibilities and revealed something very personal. Skating consumed my life and Liverpool had a powerful underground street scene that I was blessed to be part of. 50 to 100 skaters, skating together through out the week, while also traveling the country entering contests and going to events, all in the name of fun.

I finished school at 15, going on to take art courses at Liverpool College for 6 months before being invited by Geoff Rowley, also from Liverpool to come stay with him and the Flip crew in Huntington Beach, California. My first time on the West Coast of America and I knew I had found my home. 

The next few years involved living in apartment after apartment in Huntington Beach with Andrew Reynolds, Jay Strickland, Jim Greco, Ali Boulala and the whole Warner Ave Crew. Riding for Tony Hawks Birdhouse we spent day and night skating everywhere we could filming and shooting photos. I was a teenager traveling the world with no responsibilities but to skateboard, eat food and hang out in the local Jacuzzis.

Life had planned out fine as far as what I had set my goals on and what challenges I had faced. At around the age of 19 I got into a serious relationship with my future wife to be. We hung out non stop for four months, and with myself about to leave back to the UK, we opted to drive out to Vegas and declare our love to the world… However we did not tell our families, sharing with only a handful of friends.

We were so sure of how all of this would work out, living happily after ever, that we went ahead and decided to start a family. 

Our love was as true as love can be as far as the world goes, and we were more than happy when we found out we were pregnant. I was skating, had a pro model for Birdhouse coming out, a pro shoe for Adio on the way, riding for Volcom and everything seemed steady. Somewhere between getting pregnant and having a one year old our whole reality changed.

When we meet people, building emotions, beginning to fall in love it is often out of own selfishness. We like the person because, of the way they look, think, act, treat us, and so it is more about ourselves than it is about them. We were all about each other and as Tracy adjusted to becoming a mom I had no idea what was taking place. By the time I had gotten used to trying to be a father, her hormones re-aligned and she was now in need of the same honey moon stage romance. We were all over the place.

I was touring, and having a hard time skating. There was jealousy, insecurity, having no clue of how to walk in true love. We were lost, and soon we were arguing like crazy. We talked about being separated so much that after just a few years we ended up divorced.

All those feelings of anger came back from being a kid in Liverpool. While making money, while traveling the world, while living the so called dream with skateboards and gear with your name on I had no clue about anything really. The thing that mattered most, my marriage, had failed, and I was frustrated, wounded, hurt.

I moved out into an apartment with a few more skaters and this only resulted in chaos. Partying, get into fights and having no purpose. Skating had taken off due to things like the Tony Hawk game and X-games, and while skating in school yards or at buildings, the police would be called. The issue? There is no skate ticket, only a trespassing or vandalization one. A few fights, some tickets for skating and soon I end up in Court.

I made it to American, living out the American Dream, but was soon divorced, not yet a US Citizen and becoming aware that life was making no sense.

Upon going to Court I was put on probation and assigned community service. Reading through the list of places to do this service, at the bottom, it read “Christian Thrift Store”.

I was raised about five doors down from a huge Catholic Church. Giant brick building with all sorts of images all over. I guess I had a belief that God may be real, but had no reality of who He is. Just an idea, something you talk about along with UFOS and Ghost stories late at night.

I did pray at times and never liked hearing people blaspheme, but pursuing God was not something I was focused on. As I read “Christian Thrift Store” I thought about the cool vintage shirts, the old school baseball tees and the rest of what America throws away. And having not spent anytime with Christians really, this should make my 120 hours community service pass fairly easily.

My wife and I were separated but did we stop loving each other? Did we want it to work? Our friends gave the typical advice of “we would meet other people” and that we were not the “right ones for each other” but were they right? We had no idea of the Bibles perspective on marriage, so with ourselves at the center, seeking our own, we didn’t work to fight for the vows we had said “I do” to.  

Feeling like life had no purpose and knowing I was going to be at a Christian Thrift Store I decided I was going to look for God with the goal of proving He wasn’t real. If He wasn’t real, then everything is permissible and nothing truly matters. We just happened, and my divorce, my having no understanding about life, would be justified away. This would in a sense let me off the hook for having no clue and allow me to do whatever I wanted regardless.

As sad as it is to say, I thought about suicide a lot, but having my son was definitely something that encouraged me.

To challenge God I took the direct approach. Read about Religions, figure out where they started and what they claimed, look into evolution and many of the accepted theories, put it all together and when it collapses, the only thing standing should be Truth. Surely there is no God!

As I began at the Thrift store I had already ordered the History channel and National Geographic DVDS about The Bible. I was reading Darwins “Origin of species”, looking for what the world has to say against God, and of course, for the first time, reading The Holy Bible.

While folding clothes, stacking books and moving furniture around the Thrift store, the mood was set by songs like “Hank Williams”, “I saw the Light” and many of Johnny Cash’s Gospel songs. Most people there were actual Christians who were part of the local Church. All of this was new to me, so everyday was an adventure.

While serving at the Christian Thrift Store, they also gave you extra hours for serving at the local church service on a Wednesday. There I was, in the kitchen cooking fries and flipping burgers. 

I was e-mailing Priests and Rabbis, questioning the book of Mormon and the Watchtower, trying to understand what “Enlightenment” meant. Why were my Rasta friends so mellow? What actually happened in the crusades and where is God today?

My community service was broken up over 7 months because I was still traveling for skating. Over those months I realized how so many of those Godless based DVDS where just theory, an idea, and often times prejudice. I saw how many of the faiths never started and ended anywhere and didn’t answer the most basic questions anyone would expect to understand if there was a God. I also saw how many people that professed faith never actually tried to walk along with what they said.

In a nutshell, there was no evidence for evolution. Darwin himself said his theory would be proven or not, within 50 years. Many faiths have a numerous amount of gods without there being any accountability, so in a sense, whatever one thinks, or comes up with, people can roll with, and so making us our own gods. Most faiths don’t deal with the issues of why we are here, if we matter, how things should be or what happens after we die.

Through those seven months I found a book on the shelf in that Thrift store. It was called “The Case for Christ”. This book helped answer a lot of those questions I had and led me to pursue the scripture even more. 

I was still fighting with my now ex wife, as nothing had changed, and I had gotten even more frustrated. I made the decision that if God didn’t show Himself then what did it matter if I lived or not?

I had been reading in The Bible about the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. The God who said He created man in His Image. The God who said He spoke the Uni (single) verse (sentence) into existence. The God who made a covenant with Noah, with Abraham and so with the Hebrew people and out into the people of the world. This God, was a God who cared, but who required commitment. This God had set in place laws for which His people were to keep. As Israel bore witness of their faith in YHWH (YAHWEH), the neighboring peoples could chose to submit to Gods authority, or not. Time and time again Israel rebelled and fell into sin and so God withdrew and sent them a Prophet to challenge them to turn their hearts back to the Father. Eventually God withdrew from the Nation for a season and sent his only Begotten Son, Jesus, once and for all to die on the cross making atonement for the sin of the world. Is this possible I thought? Did all of the Old Testament verses pertaining to sacrifices, temples, the shedding of blood, and coming Messiah pertain to Jesus?

I read and read, watched and watched but had not yet met Jesus. I was looking to God as a way to fix my life, to give me a sign of some sort, but the Truth of it is, what I really needed, is what all people need. I really needed to be forgiven of my sins.

I had been skating up at the Skate Lab and had ran into Christian Hosoi who had recently gotten out of prison, where he had become a believer. Little did I know someone had told him I was searching.  

As we began to connect the next few weeks I ended up attending the church he was attending, The Sanctuary, and began to hear more about God. 

In my personal life I knew I wanted to be around until my son was at least 5. I figured that way he would at least know me, and how much I loved him. This led to my buying a house, and inviting my ex wife to move in. 

As I was finishing up community service and upon sitting in services at church I heard a message out of Matthew particularly, where Jesus tells us “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of my Father in heaven.” Matthew 7:21

And also Galatians 5:16-21 “I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. 17 For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.

19 Now the works of the flesh are evident, which are: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lewdness, 20 idolatry, sorcery, hatred, contentions, jealousies, outbursts of wrath, selfish ambitions, dissensions, heresies, 21 envy, murders, drunkenness, revelries, and the like; of which I tell you beforehand, just as I also told you in time past, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.”

I was beginning to understand that I was going to God to fix my life, make me feel better, and for my own reasons, yet God was drawing me to Himself, because as a sinner, I needed to be forgiven.  I had lied, blasphemed, disrespected my parents, and lived everyday with myself at the center, instead of God. 

That night after church I went home and again got into another fight with my ex wife. Later that night I found myself office and got on my face before the Lord. It was around midnight and I began to pray… praying a prayer about how I was over my life and that I was sick of fighting with Tracy, and not knowing how to be the Dad I should be. I called out being as serious as I could be and shared with the Lord my heart… Of course He already knew.

I said I was over everything, and began to plead with Him for 40 minutes about the simple things I don’t understand and the things we fight about that I am sorry for. I acknowledged my sins asking to be forgiven. I told Him that based on the scripture I had read He makes the claim He would free me of sin and send The Helper to me. Upon asking for forgiveness I said I would:

Get baptized

Give Him my skating


Remarry my wife.

That’s night Just as Jesus Christ claims in His Word, that He has shed His Blood for the sins of whoever calls upon His Name, He was faithful.

There was an assuring moment in that room that night, that I can only describe as knowing it was His presence, confirming my forgiveness. Everything about my mindset and doubt was changed. He did what He claimed and transformed my life… I fell on the floor with joy but wept thinking about how so many people still do not know He is real, a forgiving and loving God. The next 40 minutes were spent praising Him and praying for His Will to be done.

Going to bed at around 1am I laid down next to my son with my ex-wife on the other side. She sat up with her eyes closed and gave me a speech about everything I had just prayed, confirming what had just happened. She laid back down and the next morning could not recall ever saying what she had said.

Awaking the next day everything had changed. I remember saying I wanted to follow Christ and wasn’t interested in the house, who she could be with or what she wanted to do. Her being raised Catholic she began to question and challenge everything I was saying, telling me I was not catholic and that I was not baptized. Continuing in prayer, it was around thee weeks later that after a man had preached at Church that she had an encounter with the risen Christ.

I was baptized September 12th 2004, we were re-married within a year.

We began attending church consistently, connecting with fellow believers leading to attending Bible School, beginning to travel for outreaches, beginning to preach and teach to nowadays all sorts of global ministry. 

My sponsors soon changed as my focused became about The Gospel. 

As a kid I got knocked out on a handrail and woke up saying I had seen God, saying I had heard from God that He had a plan for me in America. I could not remember my sisters name, or the most basic facts at that time, but I was so persistent in saying God had revealed something to me. I also said He told me I would forget much of what I was told but that I would ride for Airwalk and would be living in America one day.

A 15 year old kid who has never been to Church or read The Bible and had no sponsors. For the next two weeks I had more joy than I had ever known. Everything was amazing and I would walk around talking about Jesus, about God and how amazing He is.

Years later at the age of 24 and becoming a believer I was trying to explain the feeling to someone of the Lord saving me in my office that night and as I was trying to relate it to something, I recalled “one time as a teen when I was knocked out skateboarding…” It was here that I realized that I had forgotten all about this experience. It was the exact same feeling from claiming the Lord revealed something to me, to years later when he showed up and set me free. I had forgotten all about what I said had happened, but it was confirmed years later. Amen!

Please consider The Gospel

I grew up thinking that there may be a God.  And I believe we all look around and wonder. Did something or someone create all of this? Do I matter? Am I happen stance?

Romans 1:20 For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead, so that they are without excuse,

So what I was viewing in life, and all that is around, is an evidence of His Eternal Power and Divine Nature. If we stop and think, there are two options: Created, or not created!

When people told me about Jesus or God it never made any sense, as the Bible itself says…

 For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. 1 Corinthians 1:18

So to the unbeliever, the one who doesn’t know Jesus, the Bible tells us that the message of Jesus coming to die for our sins is foolishness to that person.

In John 3 Jesus told Nicodemus

John 3:3 “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.”

So man cannot see the Kingdom of Heaven if He is not born again.

John 3:4 Nicodemus asked Jesus, “How can a man be born when he is old? Can he enter a second time into his mother’s womb and be born?”

John 3:5 Jesus answered, “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the kingdom of God.

So Jesus has told Nicodemus, that He cannot see the Kingdom of Heaven unless “one is born again.”

Why not? Because of our sin! Because we are separated from God. It doesn’t matter if you think you sin or not, we are not the judge, God is. And our sin must be forgiven for us to be in right standing with God.

Jesus tells us in Matthew 5:18 For assuredly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means pass from the law till all is fulfilled.

So the world will pass, but the Word won’t. His Word will accomplish its purpose as in

Isaiah 55:11 So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.

Telling us that as we read Gods Word, it accomplishes its purpose, either giving life, or condemning.

How does it give life? We see that by it we are sinners, in need of forgiveness and that it  Jesus alone Who can save us from judgement, and eternal guilt.

Paul said in Romans 7:7 For I would not have known covetousness unless the law had said, “You shall not covet.”

So without the Law, Gods commands telling us we have lied, lusted, hated, blasphemed and so forth, we would not have known what sins was. Sin, is doing the opposite of what God said. Sin is transgressing Gods Law.

Galatians 3:24 Therefore the law was our tutor to bring us to Christ, that we might be justified by faith.

How does it bring death? When we reject it and don’t believe, our sins condemn us.

Most people say they are good, by doing good deeds, or being nice, but the Bible says

Romans 3:10 “There is none righteous, no, not one;

So no one is good

Romans 3:23 “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”

We have all sinned

James 2:10 For whoever shall keep the whole law, and yet stumble in one point, he is guilty of all.

So if we have broken just one of the 10 commandments, if we have lied once, we are a liar, lusted after a woman, we are an adulterer, looked at our brother with hatred we are a murderer, used Gods Name in vain, a blasphemer. We are guilty of it all! We are not good! What is our payment for sin?

Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Not only the death of the Body, which is a result of the curse for Adams sin, but the 2nd death for rejecting the Gospel Of Jesus.

Hebrews 9:27 And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgment,

So once we die, we will stand before God and be judged, and as we have already read, we are all already guilty,  standing condemned. Also you see that once we die, we are judged, not reincarnated.

Hebrews 9:22 And according to the law almost all things are purified with blood, and without shedding of blood there is no remission.

The Law, the Ten Commandments as well as the rest amounting to 613, requires the shedding of blood as atonement for sin. The Jews sacrificed animals and wiped blood over the doors on Passover. Today, Jesus has shed His perfect blood once and for all for our sins.

Hebrews 9:26 He then would have had to suffer often since the foundation of the world; but now, once at the end of the ages, He has appeared to put away sin by the sacrifice of Himself.

But most people will reject this message, as the Bible says…

Matthew 7:13-14 Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14 Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

John the Baptist proclaimed it

Matthew 3:1-2 In those days John the Baptist came preaching in the wilderness of Judea, 2 and saying, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand!”

Jesus confirmed it

Matthew 4:17 From that time Jesus began to preach and to say, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”

John 14:6 “Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.’”

Repent, meaning a turning from sin, as God leads, being forgiven, and our being born into His Kingdom. 

The Apostle Paul said…

Romans 10:9-10 that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.

Ephesians 2:8-10 For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, 9 not of works, lest anyone should boast. 10 For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.

And so it is clear, in scripture, that we are not good, we have all sinned, are guilty, in need of The Savior and that in Him, Jesus, we find Grace, Mercy and our purpose, and can continue living out the rest of our days pointing the way for others to come to faith and be forgiven. He created us to worship Him, and be like His son.

Colossians 1:16 “All things were created through Him and for Him.”

Romans 8:29 For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.

We are a heartbeat away from Heaven or hell, and the Bible says tomorrow is not promised; today is the day of Salvation. Do you know Him? Have you been forgiven? 

I pray that if you have read this far that that you see the work that Jesus did upon The Cross, crucified for our sins and providing a way for repentance, redemption and salvation. 

God Bless.